Posts Tagged ‘fear’
I think my brain blocks out the really traumatic things that I’ve been through like car crashes. Instead it focuses on minor things that I can feel silly being frightened of. Like shadows or spiders.
Are they going to call me next? Will they say my name right? What if I trip as I walk across the room? Maybe I’ll break my arm and then have to go to a different waiting room! This is a bad idea.
I remember being a kid and being fascinated when I could hear my heart beating. I would lay on my side with my ear tight to the pillow and listened to the rhythm. I would try and slow my breathing to see if I could change my heart rate. That’s the point where I would usually fall asleep.